It’s difficult in the uni dorm I’m in, considering most people I meet socially are either drunk (I’m stone cold sober) or do the whole ‘one night stand’ routine which to me is appalling.
The few people I’ve really sparked with are all in relationships.
And hopefully you already seek out and enjoy works by women — I don’t want to insult you by saying that you don’t or that you are unaware! Reason #2: It will be fun and you’ll encounter some really good stuff you might not have sought out otherwise.
For most of my teenage years, I didn’t need people and I didn’t need love.
I’m literally petrified of making the same mistake again and of ever hurting another living soul again, I’ve been bad, I’ve made mistakes and I’ve taken advantage of people, now I’m trying, very hard not to be that person again and that includes treating women as people, with thoughts and feelings, hopes and fears and dreams.
Before all that happened, I was an incredible jerk, an arrogant piece of shit with an intellect to match and zero attachments to anyone.
I hated the idea of feelings and I shut them out and didn’t do friends (ironically this is when I received most attention from the females).